Seriously?

I am sitting here this morning numb.  I am numb with fear off an enemy I know way too well.  An enemy I never wanted to see again.  An enemy that seems to come after Joe with an anger and vengeance.

I find it almost impossible that I am writing words exactly the same as almost a year to the date.

I am numb.


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